Stop trying to make decisions for me, I know what I want, you don’t. It’s my life I can do what I want with it, stop controlling me, I’m sick of this shit, I’m done.
Somedays it takes a lot to make it through the day, from the fake smile to the fake laugh, to the holding back tears. But one day you will relise that it’s all fake. And that on the inside I’m dying to get away.
It’s the little things you say that matter to me. I don’t care if you call me hot instead of beautiful, or when you talk about/to other girls, or when you you say something nice about me and I will never agree with you, even if it is true. I will act like I don’t care when you don’t message me first, or when you don’t text me back. But the truth is, is that I have never liked someone the way I like you. Your really the only person I ever think about, your the reason I go to school everyday, the last thing I think about before I go to bed, the first thing I think about when I wake up in the morning. And I don’t know what it is about you. But when ever I hear you name I just smile. :)
secrets?
my best kept secret? hmm lets see, maybe it’s that I am uncontrollably and unconditionally in love with you? nahh I don’t love you, why would I love you, you lied, you cheated, you said you loved me when really she was all you could think about… and the worst part is.. I believed you, I loved you with all my heart, and for what? to watch you rip it out of my chest and stomp all over it like it was a bug, you treated it like a toy, and i guess that’s all i was, was a toy in your little game. but guess what!?! you don’t control me anymore, she can have you, i don’t care, because if you really loved me, you would have cared enough to read this.</3
i guess i was wrong….
best friend my ass, some people aren’t who you think they are, they say they trust you and that you’re there best friend,but i guess that’s just how messed society is these days.
